Pointless

Temper lost, peace lost, compassion lost, reason lost.
Loss of self, consumed in icy anger, fury, ire and loathing.
I thought I'd killed this me
The me consumed by rage
where reason has no hold.
Imprisoned only, beneath a thin veneer.

Then worse, the me that frightens me more than the rage
Even, unfeeling, compelled by reason, unruled by passion or emotion.
Uncaring, hurtful by calculation, not by passion.
Not willing to accept anything but its own logic driven reality.
Heart turned off, soul smothered, intellect in full control.

Separate, disconnected, passionless and cold.
Analyzing risk versus reward, effort against return
Solitary and unfeeling
Unhuman

So much progress, thought to be made
Gemini nature, at the forefront
the ugly twin.

Janus Gemini each twin
with two faces

Back to square one