I needed this
Did I ever. The trip has been fantastic and very restful. Being here for a week is so much better than trying to squeeze a visit into two days.
It's great to reconnect with friends; even though we keep up on each other's blogs and I feel closer to them than I have in years, nothing really makes up for face to face hijinks.
I think that this little group of friends is a bit of an oddity (and not just because we're odd). Mare and I chatted a bit about this; none of us have inter-dated, we've all been friends of varying degrees since at least high school. Few of us are married, though right now I think is the most of us who have been in serious relationships. Few of us have kids.
It's kind of hard to define who are the Usual Suspects, and who are only occasional suspects. For the last few years for certain, I've only been an occasional suspect. Involved in the big events, but absent for the day to day stuff. Certainly there's been additions to the group, some of whom I've met over the last week. And they are all lovely people.
It's also nice to come home. Painful in some ways, wonderous in others, but all in all, pretty good for me.
As I was driving around earlier the week, taking in the changes to the city, I stopped a couple of different places that held strong memories for me. Most of the strongest memories come from a time when I wasn't exactly the happiest cat around. I thought to myself, you know, you've had some incredibly shitty times in this town... but almost immediately, I remembered all the good times as well. Now it's the good times I remember most clearly.
That's not to say I'm ready to come back. I've got too much to get out of my system first. But it's nice to know that things (and I) haven't changed so much that I wouldn't fit in if I did come back.
I guess I've made peace with the life I had here, the demons I wrestled with then are just wisps of memory. I don't feel like I'm running any more. I also realized how much I love the life I have now, and how ready I am to get back into it.
Bravo to you all for being the best friends I could hope for.
It's great to reconnect with friends; even though we keep up on each other's blogs and I feel closer to them than I have in years, nothing really makes up for face to face hijinks.
I think that this little group of friends is a bit of an oddity (and not just because we're odd). Mare and I chatted a bit about this; none of us have inter-dated, we've all been friends of varying degrees since at least high school. Few of us are married, though right now I think is the most of us who have been in serious relationships. Few of us have kids.
It's kind of hard to define who are the Usual Suspects, and who are only occasional suspects. For the last few years for certain, I've only been an occasional suspect. Involved in the big events, but absent for the day to day stuff. Certainly there's been additions to the group, some of whom I've met over the last week. And they are all lovely people.
It's also nice to come home. Painful in some ways, wonderous in others, but all in all, pretty good for me.
As I was driving around earlier the week, taking in the changes to the city, I stopped a couple of different places that held strong memories for me. Most of the strongest memories come from a time when I wasn't exactly the happiest cat around. I thought to myself, you know, you've had some incredibly shitty times in this town... but almost immediately, I remembered all the good times as well. Now it's the good times I remember most clearly.
That's not to say I'm ready to come back. I've got too much to get out of my system first. But it's nice to know that things (and I) haven't changed so much that I wouldn't fit in if I did come back.
I guess I've made peace with the life I had here, the demons I wrestled with then are just wisps of memory. I don't feel like I'm running any more. I also realized how much I love the life I have now, and how ready I am to get back into it.
Bravo to you all for being the best friends I could hope for.
posted by Surly Canuck at 2:41 p.m.
4 Comments:
Congrats on facing your demons! That's a big step. I've recently done the same.
It was awkward at first. But now, my demons and I go out drinking all the time.
aw, shucks, vag. it's been good to have you around. the level of sardonic in everyday life has been raised by a good 15 to 20 %.
glad that you're sticking around to see entropia!
It was great to meet you! Nice to finally have a face and a voice to go with the name and the posts. ^_^ I've felt priviledged to be included in the group; it really is a wonderful set of people, and heaven knows how hard it is to find good friends.
It was so great to see you again!!!! I wish I could have gone out with you guys more, but alas, I am one of the few with children ;)
Oh, and I still can't get over how little you've changed :D
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